Changes

I feel change coming again.

I usually get like this when I am ready to let go of something. I don't know what exactly I will be letting go of, but whatever it may be I hope it's because I'm ready for something better.

In a related matter, there is a luster about PG that isn't quite there anymore. She played a great wingman on Sunday; she looked quite amazing, in fact. But I noticed today that I'm starting to get over my affection for her. Maybe it's because of the birthday incident a few weeks ago, being that it was the last of many final straws for her. I think I'm getting tired of trying to start something that needs to find it's own time to begin. This could be a very good thing, in fact, because I won't be investing energy somewhere it doesn't need to be for the moment-- if that makes any sense.

It could also be my job. I noticed that Boss has taken more care to inform me about what is and is not my job. It isn't anything more than how he's been saying things to me lately. There have been a lot of corporate staff changes lately and that has prompted us to move in a different direction, which is a vague way of saying I need to start watching my ass a little more carefully.

I could also be getting complacent. My friend's acting on Sunday (a play at the Lincoln Center,) was hugely inspiring for me. I was so proud to see someone I know making it so far in the acting world, and it got me thinking about my own path for making my dreams come true. I need to get the ball moving. Soon.

So that's pretty much what's been on my mind. I'll have little time to think about things over the next month because I've got a full calendar of events, friends from out of town, and moving apartments to do over the next few weeks.

And I still haven't gone to the beach more than once this summer.