Fascination

I wonder if I'm cut out for dating.

The current woman of my affections is a waitress at a quiet little lounge in the city. She's not someone I just met-- we actually know each other from another town (another life, it seems.) There's a slight feeling of familiarity with her, being that I've known "of" her for a few years now. Destiny has brought us together. Actually, "destiny" was in the form of a text message from a mutual friend saying, "...you should give her a call. She's in Manhattan, too."

So I did. And we went on a date a few months ago. It was, to say the least, fun. And awkward. Here I was, driving around Williamsburg, with a girl I barely knew. But you count in the many times we ran into each other and the many friends we have in common, and you're in a weird, familiar kind of pseudo-quasi-friends-but-not-really limbo. On one hand, all the first-date usual pleasantries are out of the way. On the other, you don't know if it's okay to try and get to first base.

Which brings me to tonight. Frequenting a bar once a week to catch a glimpse, a few flirty quips, (and a few drinks,) with a girl who, as of late, has completely enamored me. I don't know what to make of it.

And it's my continuing fascination with this vixen that brings me back. I don't know why. Besides being beautiful, she's intelligent, well-spoken, and weird. I don't know where she's coming from half the time. But I'm drawn, like a moth to a huge bonfire.

Part of me feels intimidated by her. I don't know what to respond to half the things she says. Tonight, for example, she rendered this lengthy explanation of what the protein in an egg white did (act as a membrane for the yolk,) and how densely packed the molecule was. All I could do was look into her eyes and get lost for a moment. That, and nod, "Yeah. I understand."

We have a date this Tuesday to make eggrolls. Apparently she's into Asian food and was pretty excited one night when I brought a couple of mom-made ones by.

I've never been so excited to make eggrolls in my life.

I don't even know how to make them. But if it's a chance to be with her for a while, then I'm sure as hell gonna learn.