Love, Eventually

Of course, she would be dating someone. Just the latest info about someone I fancy quite a bit.

At work. Again.

I honestly tried to keep it form happening, which is probably why it's happening. It doesn't help that she flirts with me in little ways. I tell myself that she likes the attention from men, much the same like I flirt because I love the attention from women. The flirting is subconscious, but the effect is very conscious and very real. I'm being seduced with every glance, every little smile, every little laugh. Sometimes when she's passing by, she touches me, like on the arm or the neck. It's very charming.

I just can't win. I cannot talk myself out of liking this woman. It just makes me more amorous.

So it would make sense that after all this time I've been building up my feelings for her, she would say in passing that she was seeing someone.

Worst part is, that doesn't matter. See, from the time I arrive to the time I leave I am clocked in to a fantasy-affair 5-days-a-week. She is the woman I love for 1/3 of my day, and the woman I am currently dreaming about the other 2/3.

It doesn't make any sense. The only thing I can do now is see my feelings through. Like B, like PG, I have to let love run its course. It will fade. I will move on. But eventuality will come one day.