My best friend Daniel just delivered his first-born son.
I don't know quite what to make of it yet. Don't get me wrong-- I'm very happy for him. I guess the whole thing makes me reflect on my own life.
I'm the last one in my family to be without any kids. Not even a girlfriend in sight for that matter. I admit, I feel a little left out in a way. I'm not in a rush to settle down or anything. But the new addition to his family has me wondering about my own future.
It's funny. A couple of years ago, Dan and I were having this type of discussion. I observed that all around us, the people we knew were growing up and settling down. Having children. Getting married. There was a time back then where it seemed like the two of us would be going stag for a long time. Now this. Well, I'm still single. At least.
It's just another fact about life. It has a way of dividing you into its own master plan, with or without your consent. In this way I feel all alone in the world. A part of me is sad because I know the dynamics of our friendship have changed overnight. A new best friend has come into my best friend's life. The bond between them will be unbreakable. There is hope, though. Someday I will have that kind of a bond too.
But somewhere inside me it felt like a door closed in my life. It was a lingering thought, buried deep down in a dark corner of my soul. You'll have to make this journey on your own now, the voice in me seemed to say.
But it's for the better. Dan is where he is supposed to be, I guess. And I am, too.
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