Denver is *soooo* close! Only four days until my trip and I can't wait to blow this popsicle stand for a nice, long weekend.
I've been calling old friends, making plans, and trying to figure out how I'm going to squeeze it all in 5 days. I have a few solid lunch and dinner dates, and the rest will just kind of, well, gel into place once I get there.
One particular friend I'm looking forward to seeing is Dev. She's a gal who became a good friend of mine once she (ironically) moved to New York a few years ago. We'd always been friendly with each other here and there in the bar scene. Then she moved to New York for 6 months and during that time we stayed in touch. Since then, we've been close friends, though not frequent ones. I'll see her every few months for a coffee and we'd check-in with each others' lives. The last I left her, she seemed to finally be in a good place in her life. We're having lunch on Friday and I'm looking forward to it very much. I find that people like her are nice to check in with every once in a while, a kind of barometer for my life.
It's funny when you think about friends. With some it's quality, not quantity. Dev is someone who I think is close to me even though we haven't spent a whole lot of time with. With others, no matter how much time you spend with them you'll never be close.
And yet other friends in my life have been in and out. Scorned and forgiven and vice-versa. They go in cycles around my life. Phase in and phase out. To be honest, I've found that friendship is something you can't put any rules around. They are just there, because you choose them to be.
(...)
Don't know what I'm going through right now. I feel change coming on. I wrote about this a few weeks ago, but I received a better indication of something brewing in my life in the last few weeks. I feel a new direction coming, and I hope I'm ready to make the changes it will require of me. Kind of deep for the moment, but I can't deny my feelings when it comes to this. I'll be 27 in a few weeks. About 7 to be exact. What will life have in store for me in the coming months?
My friend Katie says to take things one day at a time. A common affirmation. But I find a lot more truth in those words now than I have in the past.
(...)
I was wondering the other day about how I'm going through similar themes of life like everyone else. Trying to make sense of it all. Figuring out what I am truly here to do. It's ten years later from when I first started thinking about this and for once, I admit that I really don't know. I don't know how my life will interact with the other people in my world. I once hoped for greatness. Now I just want to be happy and I realize that those might not be the same things. There was a time when things made sense. Now it all seems a jumbled mess. And I'm somewhere in this equation; another soul trying to find his own way.
Yeah, I'm in a deep mood tonight. But a good one.
I've been calling old friends, making plans, and trying to figure out how I'm going to squeeze it all in 5 days. I have a few solid lunch and dinner dates, and the rest will just kind of, well, gel into place once I get there.
One particular friend I'm looking forward to seeing is Dev. She's a gal who became a good friend of mine once she (ironically) moved to New York a few years ago. We'd always been friendly with each other here and there in the bar scene. Then she moved to New York for 6 months and during that time we stayed in touch. Since then, we've been close friends, though not frequent ones. I'll see her every few months for a coffee and we'd check-in with each others' lives. The last I left her, she seemed to finally be in a good place in her life. We're having lunch on Friday and I'm looking forward to it very much. I find that people like her are nice to check in with every once in a while, a kind of barometer for my life.
It's funny when you think about friends. With some it's quality, not quantity. Dev is someone who I think is close to me even though we haven't spent a whole lot of time with. With others, no matter how much time you spend with them you'll never be close.
And yet other friends in my life have been in and out. Scorned and forgiven and vice-versa. They go in cycles around my life. Phase in and phase out. To be honest, I've found that friendship is something you can't put any rules around. They are just there, because you choose them to be.
(...)
Don't know what I'm going through right now. I feel change coming on. I wrote about this a few weeks ago, but I received a better indication of something brewing in my life in the last few weeks. I feel a new direction coming, and I hope I'm ready to make the changes it will require of me. Kind of deep for the moment, but I can't deny my feelings when it comes to this. I'll be 27 in a few weeks. About 7 to be exact. What will life have in store for me in the coming months?
My friend Katie says to take things one day at a time. A common affirmation. But I find a lot more truth in those words now than I have in the past.
(...)
I was wondering the other day about how I'm going through similar themes of life like everyone else. Trying to make sense of it all. Figuring out what I am truly here to do. It's ten years later from when I first started thinking about this and for once, I admit that I really don't know. I don't know how my life will interact with the other people in my world. I once hoped for greatness. Now I just want to be happy and I realize that those might not be the same things. There was a time when things made sense. Now it all seems a jumbled mess. And I'm somewhere in this equation; another soul trying to find his own way.
Yeah, I'm in a deep mood tonight. But a good one.
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