My Problem - Part 1

There is something different with me.

I have a tendancy to turn problems inward, as a way of gaining perspective to see if there is something wrong on my end of things and how I can change, instead of blaming others or results of my behavior. I'm not sure is this a good or bad quality in myself.

The last couple of weeks, I've noticed a change in my relationship with my boss at work. I've been a little more confrontational instead of taking direction. I also notice how I haven't been paying attention to details. Maybe something is distracting me. He's been poking at the issue, making comments about my "attitude." And my department manager said something like, "He's getting a little too big for his britches," at the end of the day today.

My first reaction(s) were to get defensive. Then I felt a little hurt. Then I became upset with myself because I'm usually seen as a model employee, always doing what needs to be done.

It's bothering me because I've also been showing up a little late to work lately.

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I'll leave off here for now. I think I can sleep now.